the rain is so awesome

it's been steadily raining all day. it's percussive sound against the window rocks. as a backdrop to the modern-euro-classical show on kalw, it drives my mind to the last 72 hours and how i've found strength and have been acknowledged for it. that feels pretty damn good, i must say.

i've picked up michelle and joe from the airport. i've changed into my body jammies (i've missed them.) and i'm comfortably on my bed. the space heater is going and i am thinking about how tomorrow will go.

i just got off the phone with danchito and we're planning dinner for next monday when he comes back from skiing utah's resorts with some friends.

it's been a long time since i just spent time on the phone with a boy in an ambiguous context.

we've hung out once, and it was successful...yoshi's and poncho sanchez some 2 weeks ago. since he's been to tahoe with family and mexico with family.

and he just turned 34 on march 2. this makes him a pisces.

my first boyfriend was a pisces. they hate injustice and dancho was talking about how he hates the corruption in his country of mejico.

this and his ready laughter really endear him to me.

twice during his absence he's called to leave messages just saying hi.

and admittedly, i really liked hearing that some man i barely know called just to say hello.

call me a sucker, but that seems like a really nice gesture and coming off 5+ years of reaching out and wooing, it's cool that someone is taking the initiative to say hello to me in a way that might lead to date #2.

yay.

the rain is so awesome. i wish i had stars on the ceiling of my room. if i lived alone, i would take out my violin and play with the rain. it's like a metronome.

a stream of patterings.
meditation for memory.
doorway to dreams.
raindrops.
rainstreams.

let it rain and wash the world.
fill my cup.