Tuesday, May 23, 2006
re-enrolling in school to finish undergrad.
east coast educated.
left-handed? not sure.
there's definitely a clarity there that i want to explore.
i find it wonderful when people are good communicators.
and i want to learn more.
because i want to be a good communicator. i want to be an excellent communicator.
something in the eyes.
something in the presence.
just completely calming.
completely assured me.
and i come with many questions, eager questions.
not to be selfish.
and i come with appreciation, many thank yous.
not to be ungrateful.
i blush through the conversation.
i am asked who i am.
and i have to stop and think.
my MO is to ask the questions, never having to examine myself.
to be put on the spot is off-putting and refreshing.
no time for performance.
no time for "the right answer".
the real answer, or at least the real answer for now.
and over the phone i imagine the clarity of those eyes.
and how i cannot possibly come up with a yarn.
else i'd be fooling myself.
and i definitely don't want to.
i find that i want to be me.